How do you gauge that?
A fear to verbalize fears. Speaking them might bring them into action. Aren't they present regardless, drifting across your thoughts with a ticker persistence?
Activity balances their wearing erosion; dynamic equilibrium will present harmony. Mindless activity logically, should counter the blinding, lethargically potent infection of unanswered questions.
Have you been breaking promises and are your movements stealthy?
Quelquefois.
Catalogue,
MOMA and Donnell Library
Am I a thesis? Modernism and the Lonely Man incarnate? frightening. Why do I like Edward Hooper and William de Kooning? No more questions. It's 5:05 am. You have to wake up in 4 hours.
The death of a vegetable baby- Bird examined his son’s calamity from the angle that stabbed deepest. The death of a vegetable baby with only vegetable functions was not accompanied by suffering. Fine, but what did death mean to a baby like that? Or, for that matter, life? The bud of an existence appeared on a plain of nothingness that stretched for zillions of years and there it grew for nine months. Of course, there was no consciousness in a fetus, it simply curled in a ball and existed, filling utterly a dark, mucous world. Then, perilously, into the external world. It was cold there, and hard, scratchy, dry and fiercely bright. The outside world was not so confined that the baby could fill it by himself: he must live with countless strangers. But, for a baby like a vegetable, that stay in the external world would be nothing more than a few hours of occult suffering he couldn’t account for. Then the suffocating instant, and once again, on that plain of nothingness zillions of years long, the fine sand of nothingness itself. What if there was a last judgment! Under what category of the Dead could you subpoena, prosecute, and sentence a baby with only vegetable functions who died no sooner than he was born? Only a few hours on this earth, and spent in crying, tongue fluttering in is stretched, pearly-red mouth, wouldn’t any judge consider that insufficient evidence? Insufficient fucking evidence!